For a multitude of reasons.
First of all, for treating this blog like a red-headed stepchild. I don't know what's up with me. I promise I have lots of interesting things to say, my laziness just seems to prevent me from taking the time to write it here. That's not OK.
Second, because I've been In. My. Feelings. for like a month straight. For my non-urban ethnic friends, that means I've been suffering through bouts of loneliness/romantic feelings or desires/self deprecation/general blah feelings. I'm seriously getting on my own nerves. It's quite annoying.
Third, and most importantly, because I've hit my biannual self-induced weight loss stagnation period. This is how it works: I get burned out on exercising, so I stop for a week. Then I get a random and sustained urge for all things sweet. So I enjoy pies and cake and candy and dessert and am happy. Then I feel like a big tub of lard so I don't exercise for another week. Then I look up and have gained 4 lbs lbs and am sad. Then the cycle repeats. Then I get back on my grind.
See how that's rather detrimental to my progress?
So that's where I am right now. At the end of January, I had gotten back down to 213. Currently, I'm back up to 220. I definitely almost lied and said I was at 218 because for some reason those two pounds seem to make a huge difference to me. But, I said I was gonna have you guys hold me accountable, and that can't really happen without me being truthful. Le sigh. SO frustrating. Especially because I know what the problem is, I know how to fix it, and I'm just not!
And can I just get something off my chest? It is sooo frustrating that it takes so much effort for me to lose weight. I mean, I know I'm not the only one in this boat, but it kills me when friends talk about how they need to lose 3 lbs so they just stop eating food X for four days and then they're fitting back in their skinnies. No working out required. Come on! In order for me to lose three lbs, I have to not eat any bad stuff and work out five days a week. For three weeks. And I don't even eat most food Xs! Why is that fair? It's not. But even more unfair is that my body won't maintain a weight without working out. I can have the best diet--no fried foods, no pop, no sweets, lots of veggies and chicken breast and water--but if I don't work out at least 3 days a week, I'm gaining weight. And I'm not an inactive person otherwise. Do you know how much that sucks? A lot. So much that I can't even think up a cute joke to put right here to lighten the mood a little. Believe me, I tried. Didn't work.
Anybody got any tips for self-motivating? I'm definitely in need.
Sorry for the pity party, but it's my blog and I'll cry if I want to.
S.
Online dating!! It's super fun. And for the exercise goals - run a race. The competition keeps me motivated. Keep your head up :)
ReplyDeleteFirst, you eat that one last yummy cupcake. ;)
ReplyDeleteSecond, you hit that treadmill like you're training for a marathon while eating as many raw, lean & non-processed foods as possible. Take your vitamins too! Overall, CHANGE YOUR TASTE BUDS. It takes willpower, but you can definitely change your taste buds. (Spread honey & peanut butter over whole wheat toast instead of a KitKat bar... whatever works for you.) A bit of hypnotizing/talking yourself up. I didn't read a book on that- it just worked for me w/ fast foods. Esp. McDonalds. O_O
Third, try to watch some episodes of BBC America's "You Are What You Eat." I watched a marathon of them and it was life changing.
Fourth, be nice to yourself. Who says you need a boo or a size whatever pair of jeans? Today's women beat themselves up too much about these things that will certainly come with time and an attitude adjustment. Trust me when I say, "think positive and you will BE positive." No more pity parties for things you CAN and WILL change. *hug!*